we, myself and her

my deepest apologies for being mia these last few months. i had to hibernate and go within to put all of my energy and effort to giving birth to my son. his birth created a lot of turmoil inside of me. it was magical indeed, the coolest thing i ever have and ever will do, but my trust in my body and the universe to do what it needed to do didn’t go as planned and i found myself broken because of it.

i was somewhat swallowed up by the medical system and spit out feeling less than ever before. never being one to fit inside of a box becoming a mother has had it challenges mainly because i’m now feeling forced or pressured to fit into the “mom” category, one that to me feels so mediocre. like most things that women go through it’s just looked at as a thing that happens rather than given the true power that it deserves. here i am now knowing that i am a fucking goddess of creation and my son is a creation of light and power. that all the things i thought going into this adventure are true and no system will ever take that power away from me again.

we must give ourselves to the power of the self and our mother earth,  for everything it can do and does. if we treated ourselves and our universe with the energy and love it deserves i promise you this earth will be a place worth passing down to our children.

now being on the other end and somehow finding myself, spirituality and trust in all things magical, i am now out on the other end of things and ready to share my inspirations with you once again…







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when feeling pulled down, release all thoughts, breathe



and then just float on…











you must take care of yourself… give to yourself, then and only then can you truly give something worth giving.





actually, i did!





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when you feel you’ve lost your way dig deep down into your center… that is where you always are.

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mother earth never questions to do or not to do, she just does.





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she is alive, she keeps us alive.

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Hematite grounds and protects us.  It strengthens our connection with the earth, making us feel safe and secure.  It endows us with courage, strength, endurance and vitality.  A “stone for the mind”, Hematite stimulates concentration and focus, enhancing memory and original thought. Hematite utilizes the magnetic qualities of our yin-yang energies to balance the meridians within the body and to provide a stable equilibrium between the ethereal nervous system and the physical nervous system.  It focuses energy and emotions for balance between the body, mind and spirit. Dissolves negativity and prevents you from absorbing the negativity of others.  Hematite is strong, supporting timidity, boosting self-esteem and survivability, enhancing willpower and reliability, and imparting confidence.  It helps to overcome compulsions and addictions, treating overeating, smoking and other forms of overindulgence.



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don’t forget to make your self a shrine.






we only have one life to live and one earth to give.





here not there

“Life is now. There was never a time when your life was not now, nor will there ever be”


  “Wherever you are, be there totally. If you find your here and now intolerable and it makes you unhappy, you have three options: remove yourself from the situation, change it, or accept it totally”

i love you.


“Nothing ever happened in the past; it happened in the Now. Nothing will ever happen in the future; it will happen in the Now”

  “You cannot find yourself by going into the past. You can find yourself by coming into the present”

now, go for it! 

Fire Opal is a stone of inspiration which enhances the imagination and creativity as well. It helps one release inhibitions and enhances the memory. Fire Opal is also said to be a very spiritual stone, and can help one be “invisible” in situations where they don’t care to be noticed. It has been known to bring happy dreams, and also to ease the process of change. Fire Opal is a silicate, containing water, correlating with our emotions. Clarifies by amplifying and mirroring feelings, buried emotions, desires (including love and passion). With this comes less inhibition, more spontaneity, free visualization, clearer imagination, and more vivid dreams. This is an enhancer of personal power, awakening the inner fire, as well as protection against danger. It is a symbol of hope, an energy amplifier, facilitating change and process. It supports through emotional turmoil, and is a wonderful stone in releasing and letting go of the past.


time travels

its crazy to me how the older i get the faster time speeds up. it is also amazing to me just how much i can slow it down. or as though sometimes it even stands still. traveling through time must be my favorite part though. to be within this non-existent realm of something that we have made up as well as making up everything within it. even sometimes allowing time to rule everything. it is also amazing to travel back in time, finding every moment within nostalgia while revisiting our past. or traveling to the future, attracting everything we want to at some point be in our “now”.

time travel for me already exists. through memory, nostalgia, our senses, time change, travel, dreaming, death & birth. getting to be anywhere we want to be at any given moment.

I am tomorrow, or some future day, what I establish today. I am today what I established yesterday or some previous day

You and I are essentially infinite choice-makers. In every moment of our existence, we are in that field of all possibilities where we have access to an infinity of choices.

Tiger Eye lets you see everything. Use it for insight and you can be a very lucky person. When used in jewelry the tiger eye may bring good luck and protection from the evil eye to the wearer. It is also known to bring clear thinking and insight. Tiger’s-eye or Cat’s-Eye is a stone for the mind, not the body. Tiger Eye is used to focus the mind. It will cause the mind to have feeling of oneness and feel more direct in all thoughts. It makes one aware of one’s own needs related to the needs of others. Carry tiger eye with you to keep you safe when traveling.

A man of genius makes no mistakes; his errors are volitional and are the portals of discovery.

(note from me: at the moment i am keeping calm myself and traveling through time. ahead 10 and a half hours on the clock but really going back in time. i have found myself in india and for now time is standing still. at least back in new york. here i am fully within each moment taking in everything as it comes to me. i will be here for some time so sorry for the delay on any post! to view what i am doing in india,  please view at…  www.dirtfloorsandstonewalls.wordpress.com. live it, love it & please share it!!! xx)


dream stream

when i am in the middle of a dream

stay in bed, float up-stream….

I’m miles away
And after all
I’m only sleeping

I feel like my transport should be an extension of my personality. And this is like my little window to the world… and every minute’s a different show. I may not understand it. I may not even necessarily agree with it. But I’ll tell you what I’ve accepted: just sort of glide along. You want to keep things on an even key, this is what I’m saying. You want to go with the flow.

turn it off, relax, then float up-stream…

A lucid dream is a dream in which one is aware that one is dreaming. In a lucid dream, the dreamer can actively participate in and manipulate imaginary experiences in the dream environment. Lucid dreams can seem real and vivid. A lucid dream can begin in one of two ways. A dream initiated lucid dream starts as a normal dream, and the dreamer eventually concludes it is a dream, while a wake initiated dream occurs when the dreamer goes from a normal waking state directly into a dream state, with no apparent lapse in consciousness.

The trick is to combine your waking rational abilities with the infinite possibilities of your dreams. Because, if you can do that, you can do anything.

The worst mistake that you can make is to think you’re alive when really you’re asleep in life’s waiting room.

The idea is to remain in a state of constant departure while always arriving.

Herkimer Diamonds are beautiful and powerful high vibration crystals, that boost clairvoyant abilities.These are powerful stones for the higher chakras. When you use them during meditation, Herkimers are powerful stones to open the higher chakras. They will take the energy up through the third eye chakra and crown chakra to the soul star chakra and higher chakras. These crystals have powerful metaphysical properties and are strong stones to aid astral travel… as they help to connect the astral plane to the physical plane. They are ascension stones… and they will take you to the highest spiritual vibration possible while still being in your physical body. Using Herkimer Diamonds may result in surprising insights, creativity and true vision in every area of your life. One of the most striking aspects of Herkimer Diamonds is their ability to enhance Dream Recall… If you have difficulty remembering your Dreams or aren’t even sure that you have them, this is said to be the Best Stone to help.

the only difference being


the unconscious

from the conscious

this is all a dream…


When it was over, all I could think about was how this entire notion of oneself, what we are, is just this logical structure, a place to momentarily house all the abstractions. It was a time to become conscious, to give form and coherence to the mystery, and I had been a part of that. It was a gift. Life was raging all around me and every moment was magical. I loved all the people, dealing with all the contradictory impulses – that’s what I loved the most, connecting with the people. Looking back, that’s all that really mattered.


Déjà vu  is the experience of feeling sure that one has already witnessed or experienced a current situation, even though the exact circumstances of the previous encounter are uncertain and were perhaps imagined. The “previous” experience is most frequently attributed to a dream.

for me it is my reassurance of knowing i am exactly where i need to be.

float ..

float up…


play as though you know

We don’t care what we are or what we look like. Our tendency is to explore, to express our creativity, to seek pleasure and avoid pain. As little children, we are wild and free; we run around naked without self-consciousness or self-judgment. We speak the truth because we live in truth. Our attention is in the moment; we are not afraid of the future or ashamed of the past.

   The pursuit of truth and beauty is a sphere of activity in which we are permitted to remain children all our lives.

Iolite stones help you to see, imagine and allow yourself to experience via your visionary abilities. If you imagine it you can experience it… so you may bring it into reality. Your inner journeys are expanded under its influence as are your intuitive gifts. It is both a throat chakra and a third eye chakra stone… and will aid you to open the third eye and utilize its abilities. Iolite stones may help you in many areas of your life… but the ability to stimulate the imagination is powerful.  it is a major part of bringing those things you desire into your life.  You have the ability to live the life of your dreams.

                             the child of air: is young because this is a brand new conversation. she is also powerful because a new conversation always changes how we see the situation.

The sooner you do it; the sooner you find the authentic you, the happier you will be.

It is the childlike mind that finds the kingdom.


it’s as fun as you will let it.

wish upon anything you’d like …

you can be just as free, you already are.


the child of air


wonder wide

everything is alive, bearing an inherent virtue, power and wisdom. Power animal(s) represent a person’s connection to all life, their qualities of character, and their power.

Through out history, the stone Jasper has been famous as the “Supreme Nurturer”. This stone has been used and revered by people world over. Most people believe that this supreme nurturer has magical and healing powers which heal the soul and body. Historical records suggest that this stone has been a symbol of helping fellow beings and wholeness. The natives of America believed that Jasper could protect them in astral travel and also could open the gateways of the spiritual realms.


wonder is the beginning of wisdom

“from wander into wonder existence opens”